What I Believe
True Christianity is not a religion, but an intimate, raw relationship with Jesus.
Leave it to humans to try to institutionalize and monopolize it.
Now hear me out on this.
I believe that God definitely blesses and moves through everything from the ancient institutions to the newer streams of the Church because He loves His children.
But these were never His heart.
Like John Crowder always says, ‘God moves in spite of theology, not because of it.’
I believe that the Father’s heart was to have charismatic and organic communities of believers learning to love together, doing life together, and learning to know Jesus and make Him known.
A lot of people wonder what denomination I am or what church I go to.
Haha. :P
I guess I should tell y’all, huh?
I go to a Catholic Church.
Okay, some of you guys can stop gasping now. ;)
I love the Eucharist and my Jesus has rocked my heart with the gift of His body and blood.
At the same time, I have also learned a lot from the Eastern Orthodox and I hold a lot of their views.
Liturgical Christianity has definitely had a huge impact on my walk with the Lord.
In the past 9 months of my life, however, Papa has opened my eyes to new things and has begun to shatter my box and break me free of religious stagnancy.
I have been impacted by the ministries of Heidi Baker, Todd White, Dan Mohler, John Crowder, Benjamin Dunn, Andrew Wommack, Randy Clark, Bill Johnson, Kris Vallotton, and Bethel Church.
These and other people have had a huge influence on my belief in the miraculous and the believer’s ability to live a grace filled life and walk like Jesus.
I’ve met countless people who radically love Jesus and people and have tremendous signs accompanying their acts of selfless love.
I have seen myself begin to step out, albeit stumbling and falling at times, in what Papa has for me.
Papa has broken my box open of who He is and what He desires to do.
I’ve stopped trying to define myself and put myself in a mold.
It offends people when I act like this because it is natural for us to want to label others and feel like we understand them.
I have learned not to hold this against people and to be understanding when people look at me like I am a seven headed lamb, with seven eyes (some Revelation humor!) when I explain my beliefs.
It took me a while to get to where I am now. How can I expect people to understand my beliefs and agree with them in a 10-15 minute discussion or even worse, a blog post?
As cliche as this might sound, I have realized that Jesus is the only One who can define me.
He is the Truth I have sought, the Perfect Theology that I am always seeking to know intimately.
Truth is a Person, not a doctrine.
Now, please don’t misunderstand my heart.
I am not claiming that I have it all together. Far from it.
A lot of my growth has been learning, then unlearning, then relearning my belief.
I am still growing and learning how to be vulnerable with the Lover of my soul.
One thing is for sure though, He will never let me go :)
Love you guys and thanks for reading.
